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My Aikido Teachers

Mon, 30 Jan 2012 23:33:00 -0800

This is sort of a sister post to My Aikido Timeline. Here I’ll try to keep track of all the teachers I’ve had the privilege of training under. They are listed starting at the beginning, with most recent additions at the bottom, in order by the first time I trained with each. I will be adding to this post over time. Putting this list together just reminds me of how extraordinarily fortunate I am to have had this breadth of experience.

Dave Goldberg Sensei
Chief Instructor, Aikido of San Diego
May 5, 2009 - My first day of Aikido training
To Present - Hundreds of training days, many workshops, and seminars.

Mike Coit
Instructor, Aikido of San Diego
May 9, 2009 - My second day of training, and many classes since.

Karen Kustejo
Instructor, Aikido of San Diego
May, 2009 to Present - Many classes.

Jay Palm
Instructor, Aikido of San Diego
May, 2009 to Present - Many classes.

Megan Palm
Instructor, Aikido of San Diego
May, 2009 to Present - Many classes.

Andy
Instructor, Aikido of San Diego
May - December 2009 - Various classes (mostly weapons).

Cyril Poissonnet
Instructor, Aikido of San Diego
May, 2009 to Present - Many classes.

Jason Lim
Instructor, Aikido of San Diego
May, 2009 to Present - Many classes (mostly weapons).

Michael Hancock
Instructor, Aikido of San Diego
May, 2009 to Present - Many classes.

Robert Nadeau Shihan
July, 2009 - Seminar at Aikido of San Diego
April, 2010 - Seminar at Aikido of San Diego
June, 2011 - CAA Aiki Retreat, Atherton, CA
July, 2011 - Seminar, Aikido of San Diego

Kayla Feder Sensei
September, 2009 - Fall Retreat, Aikido of San Diego

Hiroshi Ikeda Shihan
January, 2010 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego
January, 2011 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego
June, 2011 - CAA Aiki Retreat, Atherton, CA
January, 2012 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego

Frank Doran Shihan
January, 2010 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego
January, 2011 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego
June, 2011 - CAA Aiki Retreat, Atherton, CA
January, 2012 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego

Christian Tissier Shihan
January, 2010 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego
January, 2011 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego
January, 2012 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego

Wilko Vriesman Sensei
January, 2010 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego

Francis Takahashi Shihan
January, 2010 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego

Morihiko Murashige Shihan
January, 2010 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego

Mary Heiny Sensei
September, 2010 - Seminar, Aikido of San Diego
June, 2011 - CAA Aiki Retreat, Atherton, CA
October, 2011 - Seminar, Aikido of San Diego

Lloyd McClellan, Shodan
January 2011 - Teaching his first class, Aikido of San Diego

Patrick Cassidy Sensei
2010 - Seminar, Aikido of San Diego
February, 2011 - Gasshuku, Aikido of San Diego

Jeff Sodeman Sensei
Spring/Summer, 2011 - Two ukemi seminars, Jiai Aikido, San Diego
January, 2012 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego

Michael Friedl Sensei
June, 2011 - CAA Aiki Retreat, Atherton, CA

Alan Best Sensei
June, 2011 - CAA Aiki Retreat, Atherton, CA

Frank Blocksberg Sensei
June, 2011 - CAA Aiki Retreat, Atherton, CA

Greg O’Connor Sensei
June, 2011 - CAA Aiki Retreat, Atherton, CA
January, 2012 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego

Denise Barry Sensei
June, 2011 - CAA Aiki Retreat, Atherton, CA

Michele Simone Sensei
June, 2011 - CAA Aiki Retreat, Atherton, CA

Chetan Prakash Sensei
Summer, 2011 - Jo Seminar, Redlands Aikikai

Mitsugu Saotome Shihan
September, 2011 - Seminar, Redlands Aikikai

Kevin Choate Sensei
Fall, 2011 (?) - Saotome Seminar, Redlands Aikikai

Troy Farrow Sensei
January, 2012 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego

George Ledyard Sensei
January, 2012 - Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar, San Diego

Have Fun

Thu, 26 Jan 2012 07:44:00 -0800

From the Aikido of San Diego Membership Handbook, by Dave Goldberg Sensei:

Have fun.

Aikido practice should be a joyful experience, and playful most of the time. If you aren’t having fun, you may be treating yourself too seriously. Don’t be in a hurry to master anything. You have the rest of your life to enjoy your training, benefit by it, discover, and grow.

True for Aikido training, and for everything.

My 2nd kyu Aikido exam, on 21 January, 2012. Many thanks to my...

Sun, 22 Jan 2012 15:09:00 -0800

My 2nd kyu Aikido exam, on 21 January, 2012. Many thanks to my mentor and uke, Cyril Poissonnet, 3rd Dan, whose teaching, coaching, and encouragement have been an important and happy part of my Aikido training from the beginning, and to Dave Goldberg Sensei, and all the teachers and students at Aikido of San Diego.

It’s been a steady stream of “aha” moments since my exam yesterday. More to come on that soon.

The Bridge Seminar 2012, Days 2-5

Wed, 18 Jan 2012 22:29:00 -0800

Well, fine. I can’t train 6 hours a day and keep up with blogging at the same time. So, here’s a bit of catching up.

The seminar was a wonderful experience, with the ouchy exception of some persistent leg muscle spasms that started a couple of weeks ago. I got through most of it, and had a good deal of fun, but was also pretty limited in what I could do, and distracted, which was unfortunate.

There were 6 guest instructors in addition to the main 3. Here’s a quick summary of a few of the classes, to the best of my recollection.

Troy Farrow Sensei taught on Friday morning. We worked on a variety of swirly techniques from gyakute-dori (cross-hand grab), including one I do all the time in jiyuwaza, but can recall ever seeing anyone teach it. It was a fun, high-energy class, and a great way to get going in the morning.

Friday evening’s class was led by Greg O’Conner Sensei, who I had the pleasure of training with at the Aiki Retreat last summer, too. His focus was on movements coming from sword technique, with a lot of cutting energy.

On Friday night I hustled out the door and back to my home dojo, Aikido of San Diego, because Goldberg Sensei would be teaching the 90-minute class. I miss those lately, because he usually teaches the 90-minute class on Wednesdays (my date night). These longer classes are often more seminar-like in temperament, really going into depth on some aspect of Aikido as a practice, as opposed to techniques. It was a truly inspired class, and I’m very glad I was able to make it

Jeff Sodeman Sensei taught a class on injury prevention and safe ukemi on Saturday morning. It was a great one-hour reminder of the things we’d learned in one of his longer workshops last year. I especially liked one warm-up exercise that involved stepping out in 8 directions (to the front, to the front-side, to the side, etc. all the way around), at first a little, then deeper, and finally in lunges. Great for loosening up, and for building strength and coordination. And you can do it any time (while you wait for the coffee to brew, for instance).

I finally got to train with George Ledyard Sensei on Saturday evening, which was awesome. His way of communicating and demonstrating really clicks with me. I enjoyed his class, and got a lot out of it. We worked on a Daito Ryu method of learning to send a wave of energy over our partners, from our hara (center), getting inside the attack. It was interesting to play with that same energy later in the seminar, especially in Ikeda Sensei’s class.

On Sunday, Lia Suzuki Sensei taught the morning class, but I arrive to late to join in (I really need to warm up first). I’m sorry I missed that one; I’d been looking forward to training with her. Sunday evening’s class was taught by Murashige Sensei. By that time my legs and brain were too tired to participate, so I watched that one from the loft.

On Monday morning I only managed about the first 20 minutes. When muscle spasms get to the point where you cannot get yourself out of the way of Tissier Sensei, who has come to demonstrate something with your partner, it’s time to get off the mat. So I watched again, and took some photos from the loft.

That night I was doing much better (seems that shikko is the killer, for the moment), and was able to participate in both classes at my dojo. Like many vacations, it was great fun to get out, to see and learn new things, but wonderful to come home, too.

All in all a tremendous experience, and I’m looking forward to next year!

The Bridge Seminar 2012, Day 1

Thu, 12 Jan 2012 23:59:00 -0800

For the third year running, I am participating in the Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar in San Diego, with Doran Sensei, Ikeda Sensei, Tissier Sensei, and 6 guest instructors. sandiego.aikidobridge.com

Today, Thursday, was the first of five days, and just ran from 6-8 p.m., but I’m exhausted, so this is going to be quick. :-) I’m taking vacation time (Thursday-Monday) for the seminar, so I had the whole day free. Naturally I filled it with all kinds of fun. Here’s how it went:

Set the alarm for oh-dark-hundred.
Hit snooze about 6 times.
Jump out of bed, soak food for the donkeys, eat.
Feed donks.
Shower, grab my stuff, and head to my home dojo (Aikido of San Diego).
Participate in a 90-minute conference call from the dojo (was there alone), so that I could be there on time to train with Jean, who has her 5th kyu exam coming up next week.
Train with Jean for an hour.
Participate in the the first session of our new 8-week Low Impact class, which was really a nice experience.
Hang around and chat after class.
Mozy on home. Eat a banana and raw nuts on the way.
Have a 90-minute massage, in an attempt to un-spasm my left calf and hamstrings, which seem hell-bent on preventing me from practicing suwariwaza.
Have a hearty snack of nachos, grab a fresh gi, and run out the door.
Forget my phone. Oh well.
Get to the seminar with maybe 5 minutes to spare. Change, get on the mat, bow in.
Have a fantastic time training. Get a few things easily, and totally miss a few others.
Spot another friend every few minutes. Grab them to train with. Grab new people, too.
Be glad the mat isn’t as crowded yet as it’s going to be tomorrow.
Have a blast. Notice how time flies. Bow out, and circle up.
Tell friends about a dozen times that I can’t go to dinner, I need to go home, feed donkeys, and get some sleep. Get convinced to go out for dinner anyway. Just really quick.
Spend two delightful hours catching up on news, discussing teaching methods, considering breakfalls, and wondering what the nearby diners must have thought of our “animated” conversations.
Drop a friend off at their hotel.
Head home, start laundry, feed donkeys, write this blog post.

It’s 12:45 a.m. Next up: Bed. Back on the mat at 8:15 a.m. :-)

This is not specifically about Aikido, but what resonated with...

Wed, 11 Jan 2012 01:13:00 -0800

This is not specifically about Aikido, but what resonated with me was the life-changing potential in finding the right teacher, your teacher, in whatever it is that you do, and honoring your duty to pass the art along.

Plus it’s a beautiful video. It’s about Michael Bell, master swordsmith of Dragonfly Forge and head instructor of Tomboyama Nihontō Tanren Dōjō (Dragonfly Mountain Japanese Sword Forging School). Enjoy.

Hearing My Own Advice

Fri, 06 Jan 2012 17:31:05 -0800

My 2nd kyu exam is coming up in two weeks. Today a friend sent me my own advice, from my email to her before her first exam, a while back. If you are an aikidoka, you might hear echos of Robert Nadeau Shihan, via George Leonard Sensei’s book “The Way of Aikido”. If you are a horseperson, you might recognize the teachings of Olympic Dressage Coach, Jane Savoie. I try to train this way, and it’s always good to be reminded:

“Meanwhile, between now and your test (especially if you are getting stressed out), visualize the situation (dojo, Sensei, fellow students, etc.), and practice being calm, happy, and deliberate.

Worry/anxiety is just negative visualization - rehearsing in your mind all the things that could go wrong. When you catch yourself doing that, stop, take a breath, and rehearse in your mind everything going beautifully. :-) Breathe, smile, stand up straight and feel your feet rooted in the ground.

Try on the feeling of saying, in your mind “For the next few minutes, this is my mat. Get ready, because you’re about to see an inspiring test!” :-) And be prepared, if anything during your test should throw you off momentarily (getting dizzy, doing a different technique from the one Sensei asked for, or whatever), to simply re-center, take a breath, and keep moving forward with your test, calmly. Just let it go (“Oh well. Next!”) and keep going.

It’ll be fun. :-)”

In this video from mocaenboca.tv, in Spain, Rafael Regaño Sensei...

Sat, 24 Dec 2011 11:49:27 -0800

In this video from mocaenboca.tv, in Spain, Rafael Regaño Sensei introduces the viewers to Aikido. This is one of the best videos I’ve seen yet for explaining what Aikido is. It’s in Spanish, with English subtitles. An excerpt:

“The purpose is to enter into harmony with your training partner and then gradually to integrate the philosophy to extend that harmony towards society, one’s surrounding, etc. It’s not a combat art, but one of harmony and unity. The idea is union with oneself and one’s partner, using martial arts, but without the components of aggressivity and competitiveness. It’s a peaceful philosophy.”

I don’t post many videos, but this one is important,...

Sat, 24 Dec 2011 10:46:13 -0800

I don’t post many videos, but this one is important, especially at this time of year when we tend to be taking a look at our priorities, where we are, what we are doing, and where we want to go.

I suggest that you watch this, and then (if you haven’t already done so) find something physical that you love to do, and begin doing it. It might be hiking, dancing, surfing, or just about anything, but you have to love it to stick with it. In my case it’s Aikido.

Expectations, Failure, and Persistence

Tue, 06 Dec 2011 08:01:32 -0800

A friend from work shared a link today to this article: The Trouble with Bright Kids. It describes some research on the kind of positive, praising feedback we get when we succeed, and how that can influence our chances of success on future attempts. It’s also interesting to read how girls/women and boys/men are affected differently.

It really rings true for me. Or hits a nerve. Or maybe it’s both. I was one of the “high ability” kids (possessing an innate quality, as opposed to making a “strong effort”). I went through school accompanied by a litany of desperate admonishments by my teachers: “You’re one of the brightest students in the class. You should be getting better grades.” Mind you, no one in the school system did a thing to help me learn how to do that, they were just constantly disappointed in me.

It wasn’t until college, when I took Cognitive Psychology, and Psychology of Learning & Perception, and put the principles into practice, that I figured out how to succeed in school. Went from Cs and Ds, and academic probation, to all As, on the Dean’s List.

What I realized after reading the article, and thinking it over on the way to the dojo, was that the whole issue is skill-area dependent. Or at least it seems that way to me.

No one ever told me I was athletically gifted (in spite of being a very physical, coordinated kid). I was never on any teams, or competed at anything. And here I am being patient with myself, and sticking to it, learning Aikido in my late 40s, and loving it.

I hear about people who have gotten the message (I would assume) that they are physically talented - like people who have been very successful in team sports - who get discouraged quickly when they try Aikido. “I’m supposed to be athletic, but this is difficult for me, I must really be a failure.”

I would guess it would be the same kind of pattern with anything: music, art, math… If you start out thinking something should come easily to you, it could be easy to feel like a failure for doing merely ordinary work - or worse, finding it seriously challenging. But if you expect it might take real effort and time to achieve even basic proficiency, then it’s not a disappointment to have to make that effort, and it’s easier to let it take as long as it takes.

For teachers (academic or martial arts) it’s something to keep in mind when working with children. And it’s something to consider when judging our own “failures” harshly, and something to look at when we’ve given up on ourselves.

No 2012 Aiki Retreat. Now what?

Sun, 27 Nov 2011 23:11:00 -0800

Well, bummer. It’s official. The CAA “Menlo Retreat” is on sabbatical for 2012. The hope is it will return, in some new form, in 2013.

I’m disappointed to not be going next summer. I was really looking forward to seeing everyone, and doing nothing but training for a whole week. My dorm things are still/already packed from last summer.

I feel very fortunate to have had the opportunity to experience it at least that one time, to have met so many really wonderful people and participated in a warm, inclusive Aikido tradition.

I’m looking forward to 2013, and to helping create the event, in whatever way I can help. For now, we can all stay in touch and post photos and stories about past Retreats, share ideas and info about the future, and keep the soul of the event alive. If you are on Facebook, there’s the Aiki Summer Retreat Fans page you can “Like” to stay in touch. And check the fan website: www.aikiretreat.com from time to time.

Please share the links with your friends throughout the year, so they can be in the loop about the new 2013+ Retreat. Invite them to go, when details emerge about it. If 2013 is going to be the beginning of a new and successful event, we’re going to have to support it.

Meanwhile, take the week of vacation time and the money you were planning on spending to go to the Retreat, and find another Aikido event to enjoy and support. Start with those at your own dojo, of course, and pick any other event(s) you think might be worthwhile. Go, and bring some friends along with you. It’s our participation (and volunteering to help out, where possible) that keeps them happening.

I know so far that I’m going to the San Diego Aikido Bridge Friendship Seminar (my 3rd year) in San Diego in January. At the end of March I’ll be doing the Evolutionary Aikido Seminar at Aikido of San Diego, with Patrick Cassidy Sensei and Dave Goldberg Sensei. For a summer “away” seminar or retreat I have about 8-10 options so far, but haven’t made up my mind. In any case, I hope to see you on the mat soon, and at the Retreat in 2013!

"Lessons from Missed Classes"

Thu, 17 Nov 2011 23:20:00 -0800

"Lessons from Missed Classes":

I’m part of the team of women who write the column “The Mirror” on AikiWeb. This month was my turn again, so I wrote about something I learned from having had to miss class a few times recently. Enjoy.

Click the title of this post to jump to the column on AikiWeb.

Back to Just Training

Sun, 06 Nov 2011 17:21:29 -0800

I can’t believe it’s been months since I’ve posted anything here. There has been plenty going on, I just haven’t had the time to slow down enough to write much.

I did update my running post, My Aikido Timeline, with some recent and upcoming events. In September, Sensei led us in an Aikido In Focus workshop, Aikido, Fear, and Freedom. It’s hard to put into words the experiential impact of these workshops. This one left me feeling more… I don’t know… Open? Settled? Willing to allow myself to slow down, back off, relax a little, maybe. In October our dojo hosted a seminar with Mary Heiny Sensei, and I got to do a session with her before the seminar also. What a privilege. She is such a gracious and encouraging person, and a great role model.

In between Aikido events other areas of life have been keeping me well occupied.

One of our two donkeys, Clementine, colicked in mid-September. Colic can vary from a mild tummy ache to a suddenly painful and deadly problem, depending on the cause. I lost my horse, Sabrina, following surgery for colic a few years ago. Clementine needed a lot of serious help, but came through it OK with a week of intensive vet and nursing care. I’ll be happy never to have to tend another donkey IV, if I can manage that.

At the end of September I went to Las Vegas with my husband, to celebrate his 50th birthday. We saw Cirque du Soliel’s “KA” at the recommendation of friends from the dojo. I highly recommend it. It was flat out amazing. Worth going to Vegas just to see it.

Just before our trip, he was laid off from his job of 22 years. That was a little traumatic, but as is common with these things it’s led to new opportunities, and he’s looking forward to starting an exciting new job at the start of 2012!

Throughout October work has been insanely busy, with a mind-boggling mix of unrelated projects interweaving throughout most days. Aikido has been the crash pad that brings me gently to a halt at the end of each day after running madly in many directions. Going to class, even if it means continuing to work late in the evening afterward, and on weekends, is not optional. I really need it.

For a couple of weeks toward the end of October I had a hip problem (a snagged nerve or tendon, probably) that kept me off the mat a few days, and off my feet at times. Not a terrible problem, but ridiculously painful at times. In the process of getting through that I was introduced to rolfing, for which I am very grateful. Many of the physical problems I’ve experienced over my life have involved fascia, and that’s what rolfing works on. I’m looking forward to doing some ongoing work.

Thankfully, on one of my good days during that episode I was able to take ukemi for a friend testing for 4th kyu. Now we have another new person to play with in the 4th-kyu-and-up classes!

This has been the first “normal” weekend in recent memory! I got to do some gardening, sleep in, and now even do some writing. Next, right after I hit Post: a massage. Bliss.

There’s a lot coming up, too. I’m lucky to be mentoring a few people for exams in December and January. Then the Aikido Bridge Seminar (my 3rd time going) in January. In March Patrick Cassidy Sensei will be returning to teach at our dojo, along with Goldberg Sensei, for an Evolutionary Aikido Seminar. And of course the Aiki Summer Retreat. It’s a ways off, but I’m already looking forward to it.

I hope things can settle down to normal levels now! A couple of very articulate dojo mates have written some great stuff, and have agreed to let me share their writing here, as guest blogger posts, soon. So there’s something to look forward to.

But first, there’s that massage… :-)

Enjoy Reading This Post.

Sat, 20 Aug 2011 15:12:00 -0700

“Breathe in, and enjoy breathing in.”
“Breathe out, and enjoy breathing out.”

Patrick Cassidy Sensei, from Aikido Montreux, was here teaching a seminar recently. While instructing us in an ukemi exercise he told us to do something (basically a way of rolling around smoothly on the mat), and then he added the instruction to “enjoy doing” what we were doing.

Huh…

Until that moment I had seen enjoyment as a passive thing that might or might not happen, depending on the circumstances. But he presented enjoyment as a deliberate, volitional act. “Enjoy doing this.”

It’s something I’ve been exploring since: Enjoy driving to work. Enjoy washing your hair. Enjoy pulling weeds.

I was reminded of it this morning, when Thich Nhat Hanh, a Buddhist monk, was leading a meditation at the Plum Village Online Monastery, and gave the instruction above, about breathing.

Enjoy.

"Post-class racing mind An impatient beginner Summer moon rises"

Tue, 16 Aug 2011 11:27:34 -0700

“Post-class racing mind
An impatient beginner
Summer moon rises”

- Linda Eskin

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony."

Mon, 15 Aug 2011 11:21:28 -0700

“Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony.”

- Mahatma Gandhi

"Every day we slaughter our finest impulses. That is why we get a heart-ache when we read those lines..."

Fri, 12 Aug 2011 17:17:05 -0700

“Every day we slaughter our finest impulses. That is why we get a heart-ache when we read those lines written by the hand of a master and recognize them as our own, as the tender shoots which we stifled because we lacked the faith to believe in our own powers, our own criterion of truth and beauty. Every man, when he gets quiet, when he becomes desperately honest with himself, is capable of uttering profound truths. We all derive from the same source. There is no mystery about the origin of things. We are all part of creation, all kings, all poets, all musicians; we have only to open up, to discover what is already there.”

- ~Henry Miller, Sexus

(via Roos View, on Facebook)

Everything is OK

Fri, 12 Aug 2011 15:46:11 -0700

Everything is OK:

This is really too good to keep to myself. Click the title, above to go to a very simple, elegant, and reassuring website. Enjoy.

Ten Things You Can Learn from Aikido

Fri, 12 Aug 2011 00:14:00 -0700

How to be soft.
How to be firm.
How to move.
How to be still.
How to teach.
How to learn.
How to flow around obstacles.
How to be the center around which things flow.
How to fall.
How to fly.

Ten Ways to Help Out at the Dojo

Thu, 11 Aug 2011 17:00:50 -0700

As a member of the dojo community we often want to make a contribution in some way. As a beginner there’s often precious little we can do. We can’t teach. We often don’t know enough to jump in and take on dojo projects. But there are little ways we can help out. Keeping the dojo nice is one way any of us can do a little something.

Sometimes we don’t notice the little details because we are looking at them all the time. And sometimes we just don’t know what do. Here are some ideas. They will of course vary between dojo. Check with your dojo cho, sensei, or sempai before taking on anything too risky (like painting the walls a new color!). These things are probably pretty safe ways to pitch in:

Pick a small area that doesn’t get cleaned often, and take it on. Like a cabinet, or the strips along the walls that daily vacuuming doesn’t get.
If you have a green thumb, pull weeds, deadhead the old flowers, prune what needs pruning, or maybe bring a few plants to fill in gaps in the landscaping.
Wipe down the door jambs or baseboards.
Wash the windows. Or just one window. Clean the mirrors.
Seek and destroy all the cobwebs! Escort the spiders outdoors and turn them loose.
Take the rags and towels home, wash and fold them, and return them.
Take the rugs outside (far away from any open doors) and beat the dust out of them.
Clean out the refrigerator, or the microwave.
If you have dressing room curtains, vacuum the dust off them.
Tidy up a closet or supply cabinet.

Taking care of your space is a small but meaningful way to support your dojo community. Make it a moving meditation, an act of gratitude, and enjoy.